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[starrylizard]

*headesk*

I cannot tell a lie.
I have no poker face.
Plus, if I do lie, I feel guilty for ages, even if it's a teeny tiny white lie.

BUT, I need to learn to withhold the truth goddamnit, because now my student interview for third year say things like "lacks motivation and may need follow-up!"

*wibbles*

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[lark_ascends]

*huggles you and feels the pain*

I'm meeting with one of my supervisors today to discuss specifics and where I'm heading to put in my document for my interview.

That was my problem last year, am hoping to lie a little this year.

[starrylizard.livejournal.com]

I was much happier with my project the past two years and I didn't have to lie, but I was clever enough to just smile not mention the stuff that I didn't like.

Anyway, it does prove that these interviews are really for the student benefit, since they were really nice and trying to help me come up with solutions. Plus they brought up the motivational counselling thing again. Hmmm.

Still, *grumble*, shouldn't have let down my gaurd.

[lark_ascends]

*nods*

Well, just had my meeting with my supervisor, and we've determined that just reducing my data and finding objects within it is going to take three months. Then we need to check what type of objects anything we find are identified with, etc. which will probably take another three months or so. I'm starting to see that this is a signficant part of my project, which makes me feel better, plus the understanding that I've picked up from the workshop has helped.

See, I felt like my last interview wasn't for my benefit. It very much became a thing of "you're not managing what's wrong with you, go see other doctors because you haven't done anything about it - when I had had counselling, learnt relaxation techniques which got a fair bit of it under control and I know that not a lot can be done for it" and I felt like I was being attacked over my IBS. They went from being supportive via email to attacking me at the meeting. At least I can say that it's been a bit of a problem, but a problem that's being more managed now.

*huggles you*

Try the counselling. Seriously, it may help.

I'm hoping I've found my motivation again, but I'm not betting on it. And I'm not too happy over the fact that it's graduation and therefore my door is closed and hey, I'm already getting a headache. And I have to print out a paper that I have to read before 4 pm, and I'm going to have to go out of the building and around to the other building in a way that lengthens how I"m going by a lot because the stupid security guards are militant.

[starrylizard.livejournal.com]

*huggles*

The thing that irked me, was that yes they were trying to help, but it was like asking me how I planned to fix it. I felt like saying "well there wouldn't be a problem if I knew that..."

Anyway...yeah I prob should try the counselling thing. At worst I waste a bit of time.

[ljmckay.livejournal.com]

"works best with some supervision"

*hugs*

[starrylizard.livejournal.com]

Hmm, yeah. Thanks. *hugs*