Just yeah...

[starrylizard]

Some days society's rules are just a drag. I know they probably save me from much embarrassment and hardship, just the same as the next person, but I just...

** Sometimes I just want to lean over to the guy running two treadmills down from me at the gym and tell him that maybe he should invest in some deoderant

** Sometimes I just want to openly tell my supervisor that his hair bears a remarkable resemblance to that of Harry Potter's

** Sometimes I just want to run around squealing at the top of my lungs because there is sunshine, it's a beautiful day and I feel good goddamnit, and

** Sometimes I want to just be myself, say what I think and stop feeling do damn guilty about the things I enjoy, just because other people don't understand.

*sigh* Goes back to being mundane...


On a different note - I've noticed lately that I've become one of those people that comments on things, then wishes she hadn't and sometimes I go as far as erasing said comment, even though I know the person will have received it by email. I'm sure I'd be erasing more if people didn't already comment back. It's just like I know what I want to say, but when I read what I've said, it's all wrong and sometimes I even wonder if I'm offending people. I'm not commenting much lately and I'm erasing half of them due to minature panic attacks. How weird is that?

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[lark_ascends]

I get that way sometimes. You reply to something, and then start thinking, and then start worrying that they're going to take it the wrong way (which I have had happen), and then when they don't reply back after you reply back...but then, I have that with chats sometimes too.

*offers a hug*

[starrylizard.livejournal.com]

Some days I get so paranoid that someone out there is having a huge laugh at my expense, then I have to tell myself to chill out. I mean I don't even really know any of these people and those I do know, well they know not to take me seriously...ya know?! *smiles*

It's just me. I think I've always been a bit paranoid and sometimes avoidance is just easier. I'm sure I'll swing full circle and go back to trying to sound like I'm a smart person again, but for now I'm just going to play at 'fly-on-the-wall' 'voyer person' hanging out quietly on a friends list near you. hehe!

*accepts hug and returns in kind*

[lark_ascends]

Just don't be a stranger, you know? :)

[starrylizard.livejournal.com]

To you? Never dear Rinne! *grins*